Broken Words...

Sunday, November 15, 2009

9 Nov - 15 Nov 2009 Thanks for being with me like everyday. Really enjoyed the conversations and the time spent together.

11 Nov - 14 Nov 2009 APEC is finally over =)

Result: I got ulcer cos maybe aircon too cold, i din drink enough plus a lot of fried finger food (free flow)

14 Nov 2009 DGOA Willie called me and ask if I was interested to go back to work =)

Result: A job I'm familiar with and income of allowance

15 Nov 2009 Y-in Fashion is finally over =)

Took photo with Clement Chow

Up Next:

16 Nov 2009 S225 Lesson + B322 UT1

17 Nov 2009 B322 Lesson

18 Nov 2009 BMDP Drive at MHA + Chingay 2010 Training

20 Nov 2009 RP Red Cross AGM + FYP Meeting

21 Nov 2009 Chingay 2010 Training + DGOA

22 Nov 2009 DGOA

23 Nov 2009 S225 Lesson + YEC Meeting

24 Nov 2009 B322 Lesson

25 Nov 2009 Chingay 2010 Training

26 Nov 2009

27 Nov - 29 Nov 2009 Bintan Resort

Looking forward to more blessings and more time spent with you =)

Sunday, November 08, 2009

7 Nov 11am - 7pm: Set Up Clean Toilets Pillar

8 Nov 6.45am - 8pm: Actual Event + Tear Down

Can feel how tired I am?

Next week

Mon - S225

Tues - B322

Wed - APEC

Thurs - APEC

Fri - APEC

Sat - APEC

Sun - SECDC CGS 2010 + PAYM "Y-in Fashion"

Can feel how tired I am going to be?

Saturday, November 07, 2009

Thanks Marcus and Fionn for the invitation to the chalet

Had great fun at the 4 day 3 night chalet even though i only "sleepover" for the last 2 nights

"sleepover" cos technically i overnight at the chalet but din sleep

After buying my mountain bike for so long, i actually got a chance to ride it, thanks to the chalet

Riding through the park connector from Bedok Res Park to Pasir Ris Park and eventually finding my way to Downtown East, was kinda refreshing for me

Journey is 1 hour and muscle aching but it was refreshing enough

Anyway got a chance to know few new friends as well as got to know a few more pple better

Played fun and weird game.. something out of the ordinary to me

Knocked out the moment I cycled home after we check out from chalet

Looking forward to the next gathering with some of them

Thanks ella for coming to chalet to pei me oso

I swear next time if i bring friends to chalet, im not gonna let them out of my sight

I will ensure they are well protected and enjoying the chalet

Sunday, November 01, 2009

(1) The language I speak

For the past few days, been so busy with SRC60 Photo Exhibition.

Though so, I got to know husky and the rest through the hanging out and tonning.

After hanging out yesterday together, I got to know a few more other friends.

I realise the language I speak is not english, mandarin or even singlish.

I speak pool.

Yes, pool as in cue ball and pool balls, cue stick and pockets.

It may be just playing pool to many.

But for a thinker like me, it's not so simple.

Pool covers many lessons in life.

Pool allows me to connect with many.

To students, it can include teaching them to improve maths and science.

To others, it may include lessons of life such as planning ahead and being slow and steady.

Pool seems to be my heart language.

At least, whenever I am emoing, feeling down, feeling lonely or whatsoever, that's where I find peace and comfort.

Hmm, I've realised it's so hard for me to connect to the one my heart yearns for.

I wonder when I can see myself connecting to her.

Really wish one day the gap in my life will be filled

Where are you????

(2) It seems I'm never doing enough to care

It gets disheartening when there's so much you want to do for people

So many you want to care for

But there's a limit to how much you can do

(3) Discriminated me

So much for the achievements I have

But it seems pointless to achieve

It seems to only keep me occupied and busy with pointless things to do

I lose my freedom

I lose my rest

There may be times of fun and laughter

But there aint times of self-sufficiency for myself

Now that I've only 2 days of class

I'm seeking employment

I'm rejected/not even being considered as a candidate for whatever reasons

I'm reminded of what happened to me when I worked in Kumon during JC holidays

I was asked to leave on the 2nd day based on the claim that teachers will lose faith in me because of my outward appearance - my height....

Probably to this world, the outward appearance will always be the most important.

So much of me for trying so hard to prove myself

Even my parents still doubt me

Am i not capable enough?

Don't I fare better in academics than my sister?

I'm getting the As, aint that enough?

Why do you have to look at those days I just want to take a break and not attend class?

Why does it seem that whatever I do, it's never enough to anyone?

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Someone whom I once trusted as a friend who I can tell everything about me, including childhood and everything that caused me to be who I am

Yet, I've heard even from Red Cross HQ Staff that you are defaming me.

Go on, get Red Cross to blacklist me, if you are capable enough!!

The new RP Red Cross committee members are starting to discuss how weird you are

And I thought it was just me or even Faizal, President of NP Red Cross that found you weird

So it's actually not that Faizal or I have problems interacting and understanding people

Now I realise..

I'm so humoured

I swear I will never ever trust anyone easily anymore...

Thanks to you, Calvan See

PS: Curious to know who he is, check out my facebook photos

DOUBTS LEAD THE WAY

Sunday, October 18, 2009

I had prepared a long AGM speech which I wanted to make this year.

BUT somehow, I decided that it would not be made by me.

Instead, I have emailed someone, who would hopefully help me to do it.

Thanks in advance, whether you made the speech in the end or not.

Here's what I said in my email to her.

Dear XXX,

I sincerely hope you can do this favour for me, if I decided not to turn up at the AGM.

I seriously can't take it anymore, the feeling of the total lack of trust in my leadership and working style have been too much for me especially for this 2 semesters!!!

PS: If you need my advice on future RP Red Cross matters, you can still find me cos I still consider you as junior and friend.

Although I would want to be able to mentor RP Red Cross...

Thanks!

Sidenote to myself: Hope I can still be mentor to RP Red Cross.... LOL

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Went drinking with Sharon and Chee Pang

Sharon's friend dragged her to Double O

Chee Pang and I were there to ensure she would get home safe, especially since her first time

Drank a lot, more than any other times I've drunk

Even had a drink that had a mix of 8 different alcohol e.g. XO and stuff which I can't remember

Once we were out of Double O, my mind switched off

Drinking on empty stomach + after 2 tiring days of disaster relief efforts = no joke

But it was great.

But I knew I could have controlled myself from getting drunk

Chose not to.

Sharon kept asking me why I looked so unhappy despite drinking and hanging out

Guess, I can't disclose those problems I'm having, in such an environment.

Glad she enjoyed herself though.

Thanks Chee Pang for ensuring that all got home safe.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Went emailing for help all the way

Went army market to do market research for tentages and blankets as well as to seek quotations...

BUT THE REAL WORK CAME IN ON 09 OCT 2009!!!

09 Oct 2009 2pm - 9pm

Stage 1: [Tampines] Collect van for loading, transporting and unloading of relief items 1 (blankets & tentages)

Stage 2: [Admiralty] Collect funds for procurement of relief items (blankets & tentages)

Stage 3: [Beach Road] Collect relief items (blankets & tentages)

Stage 4: [Pasir Ris] Collect funds for procurement of relief items (water filtration units)

10 Oct 2009 7am - 2pm

Stage 1: [Tuas] Collect relief items (water filtration units)

Stage 2: [Changi] Deliver relief items (blankets, tentages & water filtration units) to budget terminal

Stage 3: [Changi] Check-in of relief items which was allowed on flight enroute to Padang

Stage 4: [Chai Chee] Deliver relief items (water filtration units) to temporary storage place for despatch to Padang on Tuesday

Stage 5: [Tampines] Return of van to owner

The relief efforts, an island-wide adventure for me =)

A mix of frustrations and fulfillment

Next Flight of Relief Items to Padang on Tuesday 13 October 2009

Thursday, October 08, 2009

Friend scolded me...

Asking me why I don't want to find part time

But my efforts in seeking was not observed.

Well hard facts also show the otherwise.

Yes I'm still idling without a part time job.

BUT it's not because I don't bother to find.

I'm not the choosy one but the employers are the one being selective.

Done a few part time before.

It's the same old reason/excuse given when I was asked to leave.

Not cos of poor performance but only one reason.

Somehow I told my friend over drinks at a coffee shop.

At that point, I can feel how pathetic and weak I am.

I teared silently in my heart.

Yes I took this reality of society very hard.

Probably that's why many find me easy to bully.

Well it's fine with me since I know the treatment by many is so...

Not many will take me seriously cos of the same reason ba.

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

I feel this report is very true of me:

Mr Lim is prepared to put in hard work moderately but he may at times prefer to work at his own pace.

Mr Lim is relatively dependable to deliver results on time. He may sometimes be late in meeting deadlines.

Mr Lim generally will persist with work until it is completed but may at times not complete his tasks.

Mr Lim is likely to be quality-conscious and achievement-oriented. He is motivated to produce work that is of a high standard. He is observant, quick to spot errors and critical where work is concerned. He is likely to be meticulous, careful and pre-occupied with detail.

Mr Lim is an objective person who is impartial and rational. He speaks factually and often does not involve his own feelings and emotions. He may sometimes be perceived as distant or detached.

Although Mr Lim is usually a sympathetic person, he may at times be selective about being involved in the personal problems of people.

Being a shy, quiet and reserved person, Mr Lim prefers his own company and feels awkward when meeting people for the first time. In social gatherings, he tends to stay in the background.

Mr Lim selectively forms strong bonds with people although these bonds may not be very deep.

Mr Lim is moderately serious about his responsibilities and selectively takes ownership of his work.

Mr Lim is moderately concerned with prestige, rank and reputation.

Mr Lim sees people as friendly, reliable and honest. He is trusting and believes what people say. He tends to be unsuspecting of people.s behaviour and motives. He is uncomfortable when he has to wheel and deal.

Courage, vigour and initiative are some of the hallmarks of Mr Lim's character. He wants to lead direct and guide people in a certain direction. Because Mr Lim is confident, forward thinking and visionary, he commands respect and has considerable influence over others. He is able to harness the support of people.

Intellectual matters do not interest Mr Lim. He is more concerned with practical issues than abstract theories. Mr Lim prefers to talk about useful and workable solutions than discuss hypotheses and concepts. He is more likely to build on ideas rather than generate them.

Being orderly, methodical and systematic, Mr Lim spends considerable time planning ahead and organizing activities. He ensures that programmes are scheduled properly and takes care to plan in detail. Formulating procedures and policies is his forte.

Mr Lim is generally able to express himself although not to a high degree of eloquence.

Being one who needs clear and thorough instructions before he can proceed on action, Mr Lim resists when conditions are uncertain. He does not adapt easily to changes. Before he embarks on a new project, expect Mr Lim to find out more and probe deeply.

Sunday, October 04, 2009

What would you do

How would you feel

IF

You genuinely offered help because

(1) you had done it before

(2) you have the know-how

(3) you have the network

BUT

Realised from another that the project committee is scared of you as though you are a busybody

SERIOUSLY it irks me

This happens to me when I genuinely want to help make a big event for an organization a successful one.

Hello,

Is this an air of superiority that you all are trying to exhibit?

OR you people are just close-minded and not accepting any feedback, even constructive ones?

What makes you people think you guys are so great?

When a simple proper protocol of sending emails to people involved is not done appropriately with ample time of advance notice?

When a simple proper protocol of sending meeting minutes to all present and absent involved for a particular project committee is not done appropriately?

It makes me wonder if a simple task can't be done well, how can a much larger scale project task be accomplished well effortlessly when even genuine help offered is being rejected.

Am I a busybody?

OR am I just trying to help?

I've no comments

I only know there are people who approached me to help

I only know there are people who are glad I offered help

I only know there are people who are glad when I accept their request for help

I do not wish to argue nor in any way make myself as though someone much superior than others....

I believe my years of involvement, my years of experience speaks well enough for me

Facts speak louder than theories

Actions speak louder than words

Since you people think you have the skills and knowledge to do it on your own, I'm not going to be bothered to venture too far out to offer help.

I shall just help those who genuinely humbles themselves and seek my help to the best I can offer in my capacity

Don't argue that it's cos you people do not have enough time because all these are facts!!!

(1) All humans on earth have 24 hours

(2) All students have studies to manage

(3) All students have families they need to spend family time with

(4) All humans have their own commitments and priorities

(5) There are people who are capable to manage many commitments and tasks and still find free time because of good time management

(6) There are people who are incapable to even manage a handful of commitments and tasks and accomplish them to even find a lil bit of free time due to poor time management and blames it on others

IT'S REALLY NOT THE LACK OF TIME, BUT THE LACK OF PROPER TIME MANAGEMENT THAT MAKES ONE LESS CAPABLE THAN ANOTHER!!

AND For your information,

Don't complain at the end of the day when FAILURE comes and say it's not your fault BUT the lack of experience/knowledge/skills when it's a fact

(1) In the first place you know you do not have the experience/knowledge/skills

(2) In the first place those who had the experience/knowledge/skills offered to help

(3) In the first place you rejected the help offered

NO experience/knowledge/skills + rejecting experience/knowledge/skills = 0 experience/knowledge/skills = high chance of failure

(Note: I did not say 100% failure, I say high chance)

I'm a very principled man

I may be quiet but I'm certainly not one of empty promises

I do not like to leave others to die and not help

BUT times and times again, the world has proven to me only one truth

THAT IT'S BETTER FOR MAN TO BE SELFISH THAN TO BE SELFLESS

THE KEY TO SURVIVAL IS THE SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST

SELFISHNESS OF THE FITTEST (THE ONE WHO KNOWS IT ALL) ALLOWED HIM TO SURVIVE BECAUSE NO ONE ELSE IS MORE FIT TO BE ALIVE

Maybe it's time for me to learn and apply

Friday, October 02, 2009

Today woke up at around 6.30pm because there's first aid duty in RP

Some sports carnival event for children with special needs

Meeting WeeKeng and Yvonne at 7.45pm at Woodlands MRT Taxi Stand

Cos both of the gals from NYP Nursing dunknw how to go RP

Funny thing is all 3 of us were late.. hahas

Cabbed to RP then went first aid room to take stretcher

After that, met Chauwei and Huili to set up

As expected, LifeCare Ambulance Service was engaged

Somehow today spoke to the staff nurse again

At first we were chatting about F1

Dunknw y later she spoke about Shengyao

Shengyao is actually her neighbour

Sian.. why after so long, suddenly started to have people talk about it again

She still ask me if he appeared in my dreams

hmm...

actually din knw what to say to her after that

luckily WeeKeng and Yvonne were around to entertain me

went over to their side to sit down

they were also "haunted" by the staff nurse

she started talking about nursing stuff to them

the looks on their faces were damn funny

especially Yvonne... keke

it was interesting to know how much they want to serve the community as well

gonna ask them out again soon for duties or leisure, doesn't matter lar

Monday, September 28, 2009

Finally, the end of Singtel F1 2009 and the conclusion of my role as Deputy Zone Leader for Bay Zone which oversees AMP3, Bay Grandstand as well as Marina FAP.

F1 is boring but the companionship and partnership is great!

Thanks for the opportunity to gain experience and exposure as a Dy Zone Leader.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

23 Sep 09

0900 - 0945am Sports Carnival Event Briefing

0945am - 1100am RP Red Cross TCSS with Jeff, Chau Wei & Huili

1100am - 100pm Chat with Ms Emily Tan, Jeff, Chau Wei & Huili

100pm - 2100pm Orchard Ion (The Asian Kitchen) + ZoneX DGOA (Wangan) + Cathay (G-Force 3D) + Plaza Sing + Peninsula Plaza + Funan IT Mall (Challenger) + Red Cross House. Note: Jeff and I walked & Mrt-ed the whole journey without cabbing even once!!

PS:

Jeff and I had free smoking session, thanks to DGOA Willie who passed us a free and new pack of Dunhill.

I bought my USB cooling fan & USB speakers for $30.90 instead of $35.90, thanks to Jeff who had Challenger member card.

2100 - 2115pm Found out that I am Dy Zone Leader for F1 Medical Bay Zone, alongside Calvan who is my Team Leader. Went to VDD to disturb OT-ing staff and got an MP3 song from Susan

2115pm Collect F1 Pass from Daniel Fong and Proceed to Site Recce Meet up venue. After which, the Medical motocade was led by Traffic Police who assisted to close roads to ensure our smooth passage to F1 venue for our medical scenario exercise, which was headed by SCDF & DSMC

100am - 200am Calvan, Wei Keong & me had supper at Selegie Tauhuey before cabbing home.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Another day out with them

Hahas, can see i'm enjoying right?

If not, why am i blogging at such an hour? LOL

Anyways, today went to buy a bike for myself so that I can be part of the cycling interest group we are gonna set up soon.

Pictures uploaded in my fb.

Laycheng came n pick me up at CC entrance

Then we went to pick up Chee Pang.

We went to have makan at Jalan Kayu prata house.

Then caught Whiteout at Cathay AMK hub

PPLE, MUST USE PASSIONCARD k?

it's really $7.50, i'm not lying.

ok I feeling saddistic cos i actually enjoyed looking at the staff going through all the administrative cos of us using passioncard.

Anyways, after movie it was still quite early before supper time with Sharon

So slack around

We bought bubble tea each

Then Chee Pang and I went to play pool at monstercue, my usual hangout

We left for mac near sharon and my place after that

Had supper and chit chat

Just got home

Looking forward to cycling soon

(1) With Jeff

(2) With Sharon and the rest

OK

See you pple for now

Catch me when you can

Next week: Singtel F1 First Aid Duty 25-27 Sept 09

Bless Me...

| m3ngk3 | 07 Mar 1991 (Her Birthday) |

| Words of Affirmation | Quality Time | Acts of Service | Physical Touch | Receiving Gifts



Wishings...

A good part time job offer

Help spread the idea of consequential thinking

Pet Puppy, Pomeranian Breed

True friends who care, not hypocrites

Scorpion Cue (White) $268.00

Netbook $699.00

Pool training ball $59.00

Momoki mountain bike $100.00

A sincere relationship

To Their Broken Road...

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